One aspect of my bipolar condition is that I can experience "Racing thoughts" when I have a relapse. Sometimes I can recognize it while at other times I am not aware of it at all. When it occurs, I appear to have enhanced brain power. I have great ideas and can think at a very fast rate. I can "solve" problems easily and faster than imaginable. I believe the main function of my antipsychotics medicine is to slow down enormously these thoughts and hence the associated possible physical activities. This is to protect and prevent me or my thoughts from racing away and end up getting out of control, like a loose and startled horse galloping wildly. I can understand that medication can help me in this respect, but unfortunately it can also make me slow and clumsy, and this can sometimes be quite embarrassing as well. I suppose my mental health condition calls for a delicate balance between being too slow and going too fast to become out of control. I sincerely hope that my condition can improve with time, so that a reduction of these medications by the appropriate medical judgement and recommendation can happen. This will lead to a significant improvement in my alertness and mobility.